James 1: 2-8

Before I get to the title of the post, I should explain a little background info. While looking through websites of available kids in China, I noticed a small little girl named Charlotte. She is 6 and is diagnosed with OI(brittle bone disorder). She will need several surgeries to place rods in her limbs to help her function in life. She has a few other minor issues she will need to overcome.
Now, I know that I should not be falling in love with a child at this stage of the game, but just couldn't help it. Her timid little personality drew me in. Her birthday is in February and we would then have 2 kids with a July birthday and 2 with February birthdays. Another plus was her name. If Griffin had been a girl, I would have named him Charlotte. That name is just so beautiful in my opinion. I began praying for little Charlotte as well as for God to give us guidance if she should become part of our family as I so wanted her to be.

So........

This past weekend while sitting in church listening to the sermon, God spoke to my heart. The sermon was based on James.

At one point in the sermon our pastor said that "Our disappointment is simply God's redirection." That statement really hit me. Throughout the rest of the sermon, God made it clear to me that Charlotte was not for me and that even though I was saddened and disappointed, He had another direction for our family.
I have to admit that this did not exactly thrill me, but I made a choice to trust that He knows what is best for my family and was rewarded with peace.

The next day, I found out that someone had committed to Charlotte. I found myself happy for the family and wanted to find out who they were so I could follow their journey. It turns out that it is a single woman looking to adopt and she shares the same disorder. She will be able to help Charlotte learn how to live with her disorder as she has. What a blessing for that child as well as for her soon to be mommy.

I still don't know who the child is that God has for our family, but I trust that He knows what it best. Knowing me, I may fall in love again with another child that is not for me, but I'm learning to deal with my disappointment as I know that God is just redirecting me to something far better.