Choice

Today we got to speak with the clinical social worker K for over an hour and a half. She gave us so much helpful information and was able to answer the questions we currently have. We went over the process and the steps we need to take next. We need to listen to a few webinars, read a book about transitioning our current children, schedule appointment with our doctor for medical clearance and most importantly: CHOOSE OUR NEW DAUGHTER!

K directed us to two sites of special need children to look at. She gave us extra information about one little girl. We are allowed to look at two files at a time and she recommended that we have a physician look over them with us. Greg and I spent a long time going through photos and found two little ones we want to find more information on. Kristine recommended that we look for a child that is younger than Gavyn, but older than Griffin.

Haylie is 3 1/2 and has a cleft lip III degree and cleft palate II degree as well as a small heart issue. The cleft lip should be repaired soon, but she will need follow up.

Kirsten is a little younger at 3. She has a complex heart disease, a small hernia and milk and bean allergy.

Greg and I spent time with both of our kids individually going over the pictures of the girls. Gage was sad as he wanted an older sister. He saw a picture of a 12 year old from Cambodia that he wanted as his sister. I had to explain to him that unfortunately, Cambodia was not open for adoption at this time, but that they were working on it. Gage told me that we should pray to God and ask Him who should be his new sister. We spent time praying and snuggling. Gage then asked how he would know what God's answer was. I told him that sometimes when you are very quiet, that God will speak to you. Gage snuggled in close for a little while. A few minutes later he looked up and informed me that he heard from God. I smiled and thought he would say something funny, but he was very serious when he looked at me. He said that God had spoken to his heart and told his heart that He will lead us to the right sister and not to worry. I teared up and gave him a kiss. What wisdom from such a little man.

Just like her brother, Gavyn was mad that she would not be getting an older sister. We explained that she would be close to the same age and she was much happier with that idea. She liked the picture of Haylie, but told me she was scared of the way her mouth looked. She was interested in learning a little about cleft palate and felt much better when we talked about two of her friends that had a cleft palate when they were born. Gavyn liked how cute Kirsten was, but didn't understand why she may need more surgery on her heart.

We should receive the girl's files to review early next week. It's very exciting, but also a little nerve wracking knowing that one of these girls could be our new daughter. Lots of praying to do.